I just wanna know what’s going through your head
The only person that’s capable of cheering me up is you and I can’t talk to you :(
It’s like I want us to get back together, but I know we shouldn’t and that just fucking kills me
I just miss you so much and I just want you here next to me and and I just wanna fall asleep with you and wake up next to you and gently kiss you in your sleep and see a subconscious smile form from your lips then hang out with you after work and take you out to eat and drive somewhere with a nice view and tell you I love you and then make plans to hang out at your place when you’re home from work then hang out and laugh together and love together and just be happy and in love again :(
But I know that’s selfish, I don’t even know what you want and I feel like I never will again. I feel like none of that will ever happen again, even in the future and I really wanted us to try this again after a few years or something when we had ourselves figured out, but idk why, but it feels like that’ll never happen again and I’ll never find someone who understands me or who will love me and treat me as well as you did.
Although, as much as I miss you and want to be with you, i understand that we can’t and we shouldn’t and have accepted that it’s over, but over this past week, especially today, I felt the slightest bit of actually moving on happening and I don’t like it :( and it feels like you’re also moving on and I don’t like it either :(
I love you and I always will and I know you hate when I say this but you’re the love of my life, and you always will be. I will always be utterly in love with you and it sucks so much that I’ll never receive the mutual feeling from you again. Im so sorry for fucking everything up :(
Anonymous said: What did your girlfriend get you for your birthday?
sorry i dont look at this ever and idk when this was asked, but we recently broke up :(((((
however, to answer your question, for my 20th birthday she blindfolded me, took me to Sky High for my first time, blindfolded me again, took me our Benihana dinner reservation, and it was there where she gave me $300 to use towards a car, or anything really, because that was not too soon after my previous car broke down and I was low on money. after dinner, she blindfolded me again and took us to a cute little hotel in the area where we spent the night. It was honestly one of the best nights of my life.
fun fact: Michael Cera asked Rihanna if he could slap her ass for real and she said “you can slap my ass for real if I can slap you in the face for real” and he was like alright. and they did the take like 3 times and Michael was like “you’re not hitting me hard enough do it for real” and then she slapped the fuck out of him and threw off his equilibrium so much he had to go lay down in his trailer for like half an hour lmao and that’s the take they used in the movie with no added sound effects
I really hope you guys all have a good holiday because you’ve all probably been through a lot of shit and you deserve to be happy at least once this year.